Tuesday, February 15, 2011

One Voice

Where do I start?  I could start from the beginning but that would be too predictable, right?  So I will start where I am now and go from there.  

I am in the midst of a faith journey that I am choosing to share openly.  Honestly, I am a little scared to be so transparent, but my hope is that this blog will offer a realistic view into my infertility journey and beyond.  As I started writing, I asked myself who I was writing this blog to?  My audience is definitely geared toward infertility---past, present and future.  My infertility story includes: 1 diagnosis of severe male infertility, 1 round of in-vitro fertilization (IVF), 1 frozen embryo transfer (FET), 2 pregnancies, 3 children and 6 frozen embryos.  It has been almost 9 years since I started down the path of infertility and the rawness of that time quickly comes back.  The magnitude of dealing with the inability to conceive is just plain overwhelming.  It is saddening and many times, very lonely.  It was not a season of my life that  brings back many good memories, but it is the reason that has brought me here, today.  I am blessed.  I am blessed with an amazing husband, who loves me more than I deserve.  I am blessed with 3 energetic and loving boys, who adore their Mommy.   I am blessed with 6 frozen embryos that I am in the process of humbly adopting to a couple unable to conceive.  And more than anything, I am blessed by a Heavenly Father, who has given me an opportunity to live a life bigger than myself.  He has given me a purpose in the midst of a mess I made for myself.  I know I am not alone.  My hope is that people read my story and relate to it from where ever they are in their own journey.  Welcome to my story.   

1 comment:

  1. What a great start to your blog, Tanni! Thank you for sharing your heart openly about a subject that is difficult to talk about and be transparent. Wishing God's richest blessings on your life and those that this journey will touch. He will lead you in amazing ways, because of one simple thing....your willingness. Love, Sheila